I had a rough time during childhood. I was just innocent. I needed love and support but didn’t get it.
Favoritism ruled the house. Caretakers weren’t perfect or emotionally supportive.
The only one who was there for me was me.
As I grew, I learned the maltreatment and abuse I faced by HK led to isolation.
It killed my trust in the people who were supposed to protect me.
Looking back, I saw the cycle of bullying from NK, then HK, then aimed at MK.
No one knew about the abuse I had to go through.
Despite everything U.S and B.S chose to protect H.K even after the abuse they went through as well.
I remember once we went to a party at one uncle’s place and which B.S told me to not blabber anything to uncle.
I did not listen, I told my uncle thinking he would help. To my surprise he did, but B.S was unhappy and I felt that was the point he started hating me.
I had no one, not a single soul to confide nor comfort. I was repeatedly abused until I lost my confidence and self-esteem.
All I could do was to isolate and give a poker face: Acting without revealing my hidden emotions.
Being a survivor I had to isolate and disengage with H.K as he always was favoured by B.S. and U.S.
The mask I wore was merely a facade, to hide the tears and sorrows, especially when it came from my own bloodline.
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